maui

did i mention i now have my first godchild? Emmanuel "MAUI" Gacho :) he's just too cute and surprisingly well-behaved. Not at all like most of us. But i'm sure he'd catch up soon. Or am i not supposed to wish that on him?

I salute all parents. The responsibilities are never easy. Plus the fact that you forever hold that fear of not knowing how to make a decent person out of this tiny human being.

BACK to my old self. the last time i felt like this i ended up getting 3 ear piercings.

i haven't been sober since...i can't even remember. kidding. i don't do DUIs. i'm innocent. promise. ooh! that tattoo parlor looks pretty inviting. ;)

I HAVE TO LEAVE ASAP. getting BITTER. HATING a lot of things. ship me off to the Middle East. I don't care. just get me out of here. anyone please save me. NOW!!

i hate this place for making me human. now i have all these emotions i'm not quite sure i want to handle. look how crappy and stupid my posts are. pathetic. it should be more mature. and more relevant. not some whiny, childish, mushy journal of some random and normal human being.

postponed

workshop postponed. don't ask.

i wanted simple. i offered simple. they wanted complicated. what choice do i have?

counting

it's getting harder by the minute, with each second a painful reminder of the big leap i'm about to take.

fear sucks. and so does uncertainty.

friendship

this is not about what you think.

clock's ticking. I'M ALWAYS THE FIRST ONE TO LET GO. because the last time i didn't, it ended up hurting me more than i expected it to. and i'm not willing to let it happen again.

Despite the distance...There are friends i know i'd keep for a lifetime. They're the ones i know would always be there and keep that closeness even when we don't see each other often. And there are those, like you, who i know would let go at some point, probably when i've been gone too long. That seems to be happening very soon. People like you move on too quickly. But so do i. So i'm doing you a favor by leaving you first. Sorry, friend. It was great while it lasted. Goodbye.

I'm supposedly good in writing. So how come I'm not?

finish line

I’m starting to feel some hesitations. Everyday there's that split second that makes me think twice about leaving. Then just like that, it’s gone. But somehow I feel it’s still there.

alive again... for now?

it's been ages. now my blog has risen from the dead. hopefully this becomes a regular thing. i've missed you blog. :D it felt weird reading my old posts. they seem to have been written 10 years ago. childish and silly. but i've decided not to erase them. to know where i'm headed, i must see where i started and how i walked through life for the past 22 years. remind me to update you about everything that happened between my last post and this post... see ya!

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baby shower

08.31.08

m.teena's baby shower. see u soon Maui!♥

watch the video. i had to cut the original 15-min video because it can't be uploaded here.

SONGS used:

• when 6 songs collide by Norwegian Recycling

• 8 become 1 by Norwegian Recycling

because

I'VE BEEN GONE FOR SUCH A LONG TIME.....

I'M GOING TO UPLOAD A VERY LONG ENTRY. SORRY. ♥

walking

i hate walking. but sometimes it does have its good side. like seeing these colors painted in the sky.

stuff

never leave me alone inside National Bookstore or in any place that sells school supplies because i'll end up buying a lot of things, things i don't really need.

one task listed in my to-do list when i went to manila was to organize and clean up my school stuff. at first i was not sure whether to keep or throw away my readings. i was more inclined to keep them for 'future reference' but i knew it was just a silly thought. that i'd ever be able to read them is simply impossible. it's 'a good idea' though. an idea. nothing more. who am i kidding? i didn't even read them when i was still in school. so i said goodbye to all my photocopied readings...

i was rather amused when i found all the things i could still use. i have 5 packs of colored index cards of different sizes, 4 dozens of paper clips (the big colorful ones i usually use for my thick readings), 4 plastic folders/containers, 3 staplers (with 1 pack of colored staples), 2 scissors, 3 bottles of glue, 2 paper cutters, 1 footprint-paper cutter, 10 unused notebooks of different sizes, 3 boxes of chalk, 3 rulers, 10 folders, a big stack of post-its, etc...

and look at all my pens and pencils... :)

don't you just love school supplies?

you know what's weird? even though i love to buy (and collect) all these things, i don't like using them...

at the office...

summer

m.ching (my cousin) and james (her son = my nephew) visited us last april. james sometimes talks funny.

imagine a british kid speaking ilonggo. he's soooo cute.

joy and gene, my cousins from manila, also stayed with us during the summer vacation.

4.16.08
we went to watch mark (my sis' bf) play basketball after our dinner party at city heights.

james kept on calling the game 'football'. ;) aww..

top (from left): xavier, m.ching & cholo
bottom (from left): me, my sister khrizzy
with her dog britney, joy & james

4.19.08
we used to visit guimaras every summer when we were younger. i guess when we got busier with our own lives, we forgot how fun it was to be in this place.

my sis decided to bring britney on her first vacation ever. the water wasn't calm at all during our boat ride that britney got seasick. haha! it wasn't funny at that time though. james also got seasick. :(

but who can stay gloomy after seeing the beach?

unfortunately, i was only able to save these photos. don't ask.

we were back in bacolod after 2 days...

(from left): gene, enzo, my sister & britney, joy, m.ching &

james, xavy (at the bottom), me & cholo

SUNSET PHOTOS

4.30.08

we went bar-hopping during their last night in bacolod. this photo was taken at sorrento. minor alert.

good thing nobody asks for IDs or we'd be in big trouble for bringing a 14-year-old.

(from left): xavier, cholo, joy, me, my sister & m.ching

nephew james

03.03.08

i'm getting confused with the chronological order. haha. anyway... i'll just keep on posting.

here are photos of james (my cousin's son) during his visit to the philippines.♥

thesis days

03.15.08

this is a super delayed post. these photos were taken during our boat ride along the obando-malabon rivers. thesis days.

thank god it's over.

britney

i'm fulfilling my promise to post an entry about our dog britney.♥

sleeping on my bed

sleeping on my bed again.
wearing her soccer shirt.

about to take her afternoon nap.

brit's (2nd generation) sister (or brother, i'm not sure).
died after 1 month. :(

cherry hills pics

03.02.08
some pics i forgot to upload. trip to cherry hills for our geology 1 report. see video here.

can anyone think of a funny caption for this one?

spontaneity

I found it rather surprising that no matter how long I've been gone I still love this place (I'm referring to Manila, not my blog.. though I miss the online world just the same.) Maybe not as much as I love my hometown, but close. I've missed the TUESDAY GROUP the most. Then there's the food... shopping... I even missed seeing the pink and blue MMDA fences and urinals. It's only in Manila. hahaha.

It was 2 weeks ago when my former UP professor texted me saying my entry to the UPFI Centennial Photo Competition was chosen as one of the finalists. I only joined the contest because everyone in my Black and White Photography class at that time was required to submit an entry. I totally forgot about it until I received the message.

The committee handling the contest needed reprinted copies of the photos. Since I left Manila in such a hurry before graduation, all my school stuff and some clothes were still in my uncle's house where I'd lived. I asked people to look for my film strip so i can have my photo reprinted. After 1 week, I've finally made a decision. (after debating for the nth time the pros and cons with my friends and family who were all asking me to go.)

So that's how I ended up in Manila the following day. That was last friday. Since then, I've found my filmstrip. I've had coffee with my friends. I've eaten at nice restaurants (but I'm still craving for Japanese food.) I've gone shopping. I'm broke and ready to go back to Bacolod. haha.

hello blog, I'm still alive.

I seem to have forgotten about this blog. Sorry. I'll be updating again soon. I promise.♥

I'll be in Manila tomorrow. But I'm only staying for a few days.

quickie update

can't say i'm unhappy. it's just that i'm so bored and sober most of the time that i'm almost tempted to take the next flight back to manila. my aunt doesn't want to change our phone line so i'm stuck with the slowest internet connection since the internet was invented. i can't even upload my photos. :( cheers to crappy internet connections, stolen wallets & stupid guys you meet at the bar. i'm totally convinced that i'm wasting my time being a bum but i don't really care.

btw, i love our dog britney!!♥ she's so spoiled that she's gone from britney to bratney. and now it's bitchney. (i'll post an entry about her soon.^^)

note to self:(*kill Classmate A for taking that picture. kill Classmate B for posting it on friendster. haha.)

@ zinzi's haus

so i'm actually graduating. suprise surprise! but i don't feel like celebrating. too much drama. some stupid people have caused the delay of my friends' graduation. anyway... one last post before i leave for bacolod.

first alcohol intake since jan.2. overnight at zinzi's house. we ate too much!! haha. i will miss you guys like crazy! :) (aww, this picture was taken before marta arrived.)

THIS BLOG IS TEMPORARILY CLOSED. OWNER ON VACATION. SEE YOU IN 2 MONTHS.

i do not wait for anyone

i hate waiting. if patience is a virtue, well it isn't one of mine. i'd leave and move on if someone asks me to wait. but not this time. it seems like i've done nothing else for the past few days but wait.
I CAN'T:
buy my plane ticket
tell my cousins and uncle when to buy theirs
drink with the tuesday group
plan a road trip with them
tell my friends the exact date of my arrival
tell my sister when to schedule out trip to guimaras
tell my dad i'm finally done with school
celebrate the end of my college days
SAY YES TO ANYTHING!!!

i live one day at a time. plan nothing for fear that i might just ruin it later on. i'm starting to hate myself for putting everybody else's vacation on hold. SORRY.

damn it. it's been a week. i'm on the verge of losing my sanity. just tell me already. i'm close to not caring whether i pass or not just so i wouldn't have to wait any longer. i just wanna get on with my life. fast.

MARAMING SALAMAT SA LAHAT NA BUMATI.

i'm still waiting for the verdict. ;) i can't celebrate (or breakdown) til then.

home alone

YEY!!! WEBSITE 100% COMPLETE. i'll be home alone for 3 days 2 nights. (*sigh)

here's one of the photos taken during our trip last saturday.

bday blues

i'm almost done with my new website for j122. :D

still not sure if i'm going home but i've realized one thing.. i really want to celebrate my bday with my family and friends back home. no, i don't want to have a party. i just want to be there. if only i can bring all my college friends to bacolod.. haha. anyway, even if i do go home, it would probably be next month. too late. :/

thesis update: boat ride from obando to the landfill/birdwatching(haha)/closest i could get to having a fieldtrip

can't wait to post my photos. if you were stuck indoors, you missed seeing a really beautiful sky yesterday.

yuck angst.

I UPDATED THIS POST. :( yes. i am now starting to lose hope. STUPID THESIS! Bagay nga na tungkol ka sa basura. Malapit ka narin kasi maging basura. >:P

pagbalik sa cherry hills

report for geology 1. made this using moviemaker. haha. jologs.